21. 2+1=3
22. 2+2=4
nouveau symbole. 4. stabilite, terre, perfection.
mes mains tremblent. la terre-4 tremble. je suis un seisme.
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mes mains, mes mains. amorties, bloquees. fais un effort, continue a taper, a gratter les memes cicatrices, a tracer les memes traits d'eyeliner vert (comme ca tu verras vert, mieux, clair, sincerement, douloureusement. verde-n fata).
mon dos, mon dos. mes vertebres a noeuds.
mon cou.
ma tete: cheveux qui s'electrisent, un peu desseches; ma tete dans le brouillard;
mes yeux - a cernes cachees, gonfles, profonds, couleur marecage; c'est mon regard qui trahit mes cicatrices. heureusement on a invente le mascara colore, ca inverse les contrastes.
porter du rouge: cacher l'insecurite, masquer le manque de confiance en soi, feindre l'invulnerabilite par des repliques crues, piquantes, seches, des sousentendus, des rappels subliminaux.
l'appeler: feindre l'amitie. pour qu'il voye que c'est un mensonge. que c'est pas possible. ca n'existe pas. etre gentille, pour qu'il se souvienne du mal qu'il a fait.
feindre: se donner en spectacle. se faire mirage. mettre le masque et dire que c'est mon vrai visage.
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ceci est pour ceux qui ont su voir au dela de ce que je leur montre.
ceci est pour ceux qui ont cherche a comprendre au dela de mes mots.
ceci est pour ceux qui n'ont pas eu peur de cette prise de tete que je suis.
ceci est pour ceux qui ont tout pris et on choisi de garder, et non pas d'ecraser.
ceci est pour ceux qui ne fuyent pas.
for we only accept the love we think we deserve.
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and this:
"Don't be reckless with other people's hearts. Don't put up with people who are reckless with yours."
"The opposite of love is not hate, it's indifference."
A friend is someone who knows all about you and still loves you."
Always forgive your enemies; nothing annoys them so much."
I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel." — Maya Angelou
"Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage." — Lao Tzu
"Love is that condition in which the happiness of another person is essential to your own." — Robert A. Heinlein
Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up."
— Neil Gaiman (The Sandman Vol. 9: The Kindly Ones)
I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where. I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride; so I love you because I know no other way." — Pablo Neruda (100 Love Sonnets/Cien Sonetos De Amor
...we accept the love we think we deserve." — Stephen Chbosky
One good thing about music, when it hits you, you feel no pain.— Bob Marley
Love anything and your heart will be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact you must give it to no one, not even an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements. Lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket, safe, dark, motionless, airless, it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable. To love is to be vulnerable." — C.S. Lewis
Happiness in intelligent people is the rarest thing I know.— Ernest Hemingway
Never go to bed mad. Stay up and fight.— Phyllis Diller
"A wise girl kisses but doesn't love, listens but doesn't believe, and leaves before she is left.— Marilyn Monroe
"Love is an irresistible desire to be irresistibly desired." — Robert Frost
The heart was made to be broken.— Oscar Wilde
Numbing the pain for a while will make it worse when you finally feel it." — J.K. Rowling
Everything was beautiful and nothing hurt.— Kurt Vonnegut
Love is not affectionate feeling, but a steady wish for the loved person's ultimate good as far as it can be obtained.— C.S. Lewis
"Every woman is a rebel." — Oscar Wilde
To fear love is to fear life, and those who fear life are already 3-parts dead.— Bertrand Russell
"What I want is to be needed. What I need is to be indispensable to somebody. Who I need is somebody that will eat up all my free time, my ego, my attention. Somebody addicted to me. A mutual addiction." — Chuck Palahniuk
